Why Her?

I emailed C today. She's still in bad shape. Tomorrow would have been her 2 year anniversary with the now ex. What do I tell her? How do I let her know that everything will be okay when I've never been in her shoes? I try to be a good friend and just let her know I'm there for her. But I miss my friend. I want her back. I miss her bubliness and her sunshine. I want her to see past tomorrow. But her ex man sucks. And for today, in her mind all men are assholes. I don't have words to make her feel differently.

The Weekend Wasn't a Bust...

It was a crazy weekend. I didn't go away, again. Gotta work on that for next year!

But I did go to my mom's co-workers wedding. Not sure how I got invited but I went. Partly because I absolutely love weddings and partly because Lisa is a really sweet person. I was happy she'd invited me. It started off a little on the ghetto side. Through no fault of her or her new husband. Apparently the catering hall wasn't quite ready to seat the wedding guests so we all sat out in the lobby. I hope she got a slight refund for that. So unprofessional. Note to self: do not use Fleur de Lis if I'm trying to impress folk! After a bit of a wait (try almost an hour and we were a half-hour later than the time on the invite!) we were seated in avery chilly reception hall in the back of the facility. It was nicely decorated but I was hungry and to have the food laid out in the back of the room while waiting for the ceremony to start was pure torture! But the ceremony was beautiful. Lisa was gorgeous and absolutely glowing. And her bridesmaids gave me hope in that each and every one of them were full-figured women! They looked good and they felt good and it showed. The only somewhat downside for me was in the ceremony, the maid of honor was supposed to read the scripture about love from 1 Corinthians (I know it well from Emily's wedding). But neither she nor the officiant had a bible handy. What kind of a clergyman (or woman in this case) doesn't carry a bible! But I digress. After the ceremony, we had one heck of a party. We ate plentifully and drank plentifully and nobody showed their ass. Even the children were well behaved. I'm still not having kids at my wedding but it was nice to see that some people still raise their kids right!

Sunday, I went to Toe's church. They were celebrating Hip-Hop Sunday (read: Youth Sunday). Her godmother had invited me from way back at the Mother's Day Brunch. So I had planned on getting up and travelling the hour and some change up to Spanish Harlem to attend church. I really should get back in touch with my religious self. But it's so hard to trust a church. I still believe the word but the politics of actual church I can live without. Anyway, her church did a wonderful job. The kids were really into the word and the performance. I even found myself paying attention to and agreeing with the sermon. I do have issues. Afterwards, there was a barbeque. We even did the electric and the cha-cha slide. I wouldn't mind going to Toe's church if it wasn't so far away. I already know everybody and feel comfortable there. I'm just scared of making that spiritual commitment again. Not really sure why. I just am.

Monday was dedicated to attempting to make my backyard usable. I am determined to have a BBQ this summer. But I hate to imagine the work that it's going to take to make it happen. But I'm going to do my best to be dedicated to making it happen. Now I'm back at work. Would love to be someplace else, anyplace else...

Everything that has a beginning...

Well, it's official. I'm a blogger. Not quite sure why, not quite sure what I want to "blog" about. I just found myself reading someone else's blog and just being kind of fascinated by the idea of jotting down my thoughts. A journal, just a bit more convenient than writing every night.

More later...